Post by Zexion on May 15, 2017 9:58:17 GMT -6
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Zexion
When we'd be re-completed...
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Those words were said so many times, but the meaning of them never truly was processed. Perhaps it was because there were so many other things rattling around in my brain, or maybe it was because I didn't want to let myself understand - I'd rather be focused on the other things: the books, the experiments, the lab work. All of the missions I did and all the work I put into the Organization at the Superior's order was for that goal, but in the end, did I truly know what that meant? For me, information was everything. Logic was the only crucial point of existence that mattered and I would find the reasoning behind it. With hearts, though, there was none. There was no science that could truly explain it, no findings that could turn it to encoded data that I would be able to understand.
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And it was frustrating. Frustrating beyond all words.
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But I didn't feel that, because I wasn't supposed to. I couldn't feel because I had no heart, and I was fighting to get it back. Come to think of it, I'm not sure I even... Cared. Everything I did was done because I was ordered to do it, and even Ienzo - that was the reason he did things, too. He was disassociated with the world around him. He was a child thrown into this world and forced to be alone far before he could be considered ready. That poor, sad boy turned into
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This.
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As the days wore on in the Organization, what I thought was my understanding on my goal lessened as the hours ticked by. I was fighting for a heart, but what was a heart? What did it do? It would make us feel again. No matter how much I searched my endless fields of knowledge in my mind, I could never successfully find what those emotions were. This happiness, this joy, this excitement- none of it resonated with me nor Ienzo in the slightest. If what we were fighting for was to regain what we'd lost, what... Had I lost? What had he lost?
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Avoiding the issue, however, was moderately easy. I had a habit of finding the simplicity in the complexity, and I could understand anything given to me regarding logical analysis - I focused on that, and I was able to continue day by day. That was.. Until Castle Oblivion. When I had first been sent there, I wasn't bothered by it in the slightest. Nothing more than business, nothing more than another castle for me to make sense of and memorize. The corridors were long and seemingly endless, however, and they managed to confuse me, which was infuriating. Anger - was that what that was supposed to feel like? It was dull and deep, but definitely a spark managed to reach the surface at that time.
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I fought with Riku - the boy was formidable, able to smell out the darkness and track me down like a hound. It was rare that someone could see through my illusions like that; he had as strong mind and a powerful will. Maybe that was the power a heart could bring? That anger rose again, taking a different form. Envy?
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I hated that these concepts were beyond my understanding, that they couldn't be fathomed through logic alone. Logic was the only thing that made sense to me, so all concepts housed outside of its grasp were meaningless to me, but yet so powerful to the point where I couldn't touch them. The word "frustrating" couldn't even begin to explain how I felt. Felt, feel; I couldn't get that, either. Ienzo didn't feel, I didn't feel, what were these things?
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Of all the things to take me down, in the end, was Axel. His sly words had spoken fiendish thoughts into the feeble mind of the replica, which caused the clone to rebel. I was never one for brute strength, that much was obvious, so without my Lexicon to defend me and no way to escape the powerful grasp, I was no match. I felt pain across every nerve of my body as my energy was drained, leaving me nothing but a pile of ash on the ground. If I had consciousness, I would have been grateful for the moment I stopped feeling. In the last nanoseconds of my existence, I felt peace; felt.. I felt peace.
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But like all things, that changed. My peace of being no more wouldn't come to withstand, and I was brought back into a physical flesh. The world around me was unfamiliar, strange and lively. People had stopped in order to wake me up, shaking me by the shoulders and asking if I was alright, and where I was from. They called the place Stomend, and the technology here was primitive, but at the same time... Charming to me, in a way. I couldn't explain it, and I probably still can't. All of the people here, from what I could gather, were like me. From another world far, far away, stolen in order to inhabit this force by the name of Kindra.
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Whatever the reason I was brought here, I.. I'm here. They have a library which I have been able to find employment at, and it allows me to draw an income to support myself with. In my chest, I still feel nothing, just as it always was, and I still don't know what it is I'm searching for, what a heart truly is or what it would feel like.
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But I guess I'm still looking.
Ever since Zexion was brought into the world as a Nobody rather than a normal person, he has had the ability to call forth a book all-knowing of anything his mind has come across: The Lexicon. This is his weapon, but at the same time, a trove of all he's encountered and all he's learned. With this book he is able to cast spells and use powerful magic at a whim, though he doesn't necessarily like to do so unless forced. These spells can take up the majority of his energy, so he would much rather stick to his natural ability: illusion.
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With his strong mind, Zexion has the ability to cast illusion to the eyes of another, making them see what he wants them to see. Again, he only uses this when necessary, and it will be discussed between players if he puts it into use as to avoid powerplaying. Along with affecting one's mind to the world around them, he can also affect someone to where they would perceive him as something, or someone different. This includes cloning himself, altering his appearance, and altering his voice.
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Aside from these abilities, the young Nobody has a remarkable mind for science and things of the like. He enjoys reading more than anything due to the way it allows him to immerse himself within something. Reading about emotions, or reading about people with hearts give him a sense that he might better understand it himself when the time comes. In these books, whenever Zexion learns something new, it is added to his Lexicon; the book is otherworldly, having magic surrounding it allowing the pages to grow endlessly, brought forth when they are called upon.
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Zexion enjoys learning, puzzles and things that give his mind a challenge. Apart from logical things, however, he is virtually primitive and doesn't understand even the basics. Being the kind of Nobody he is, though, he's willing to try.
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I have taken Zexion from AFTER KH RE:COM, after the point he was killed by Riku Replica/Axel
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PLAYED BY BARBIE !
Zexion
He/Him
Nineteen
Kingdom Hearts
Unknown
Stomend
When we'd be re-completed...
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Those words were said so many times, but the meaning of them never truly was processed. Perhaps it was because there were so many other things rattling around in my brain, or maybe it was because I didn't want to let myself understand - I'd rather be focused on the other things: the books, the experiments, the lab work. All of the missions I did and all the work I put into the Organization at the Superior's order was for that goal, but in the end, did I truly know what that meant? For me, information was everything. Logic was the only crucial point of existence that mattered and I would find the reasoning behind it. With hearts, though, there was none. There was no science that could truly explain it, no findings that could turn it to encoded data that I would be able to understand.
[break][break]
And it was frustrating. Frustrating beyond all words.
[break][break]
But I didn't feel that, because I wasn't supposed to. I couldn't feel because I had no heart, and I was fighting to get it back. Come to think of it, I'm not sure I even... Cared. Everything I did was done because I was ordered to do it, and even Ienzo - that was the reason he did things, too. He was disassociated with the world around him. He was a child thrown into this world and forced to be alone far before he could be considered ready. That poor, sad boy turned into
[break][break]
This.
[break][break]
As the days wore on in the Organization, what I thought was my understanding on my goal lessened as the hours ticked by. I was fighting for a heart, but what was a heart? What did it do? It would make us feel again. No matter how much I searched my endless fields of knowledge in my mind, I could never successfully find what those emotions were. This happiness, this joy, this excitement- none of it resonated with me nor Ienzo in the slightest. If what we were fighting for was to regain what we'd lost, what... Had I lost? What had he lost?
[break][break]
Avoiding the issue, however, was moderately easy. I had a habit of finding the simplicity in the complexity, and I could understand anything given to me regarding logical analysis - I focused on that, and I was able to continue day by day. That was.. Until Castle Oblivion. When I had first been sent there, I wasn't bothered by it in the slightest. Nothing more than business, nothing more than another castle for me to make sense of and memorize. The corridors were long and seemingly endless, however, and they managed to confuse me, which was infuriating. Anger - was that what that was supposed to feel like? It was dull and deep, but definitely a spark managed to reach the surface at that time.
[break][break]
I fought with Riku - the boy was formidable, able to smell out the darkness and track me down like a hound. It was rare that someone could see through my illusions like that; he had as strong mind and a powerful will. Maybe that was the power a heart could bring? That anger rose again, taking a different form. Envy?
[break][break]
I hated that these concepts were beyond my understanding, that they couldn't be fathomed through logic alone. Logic was the only thing that made sense to me, so all concepts housed outside of its grasp were meaningless to me, but yet so powerful to the point where I couldn't touch them. The word "frustrating" couldn't even begin to explain how I felt. Felt, feel; I couldn't get that, either. Ienzo didn't feel, I didn't feel, what were these things?
[break][break]
Of all the things to take me down, in the end, was Axel. His sly words had spoken fiendish thoughts into the feeble mind of the replica, which caused the clone to rebel. I was never one for brute strength, that much was obvious, so without my Lexicon to defend me and no way to escape the powerful grasp, I was no match. I felt pain across every nerve of my body as my energy was drained, leaving me nothing but a pile of ash on the ground. If I had consciousness, I would have been grateful for the moment I stopped feeling. In the last nanoseconds of my existence, I felt peace; felt.. I felt peace.
[break][break]
But like all things, that changed. My peace of being no more wouldn't come to withstand, and I was brought back into a physical flesh. The world around me was unfamiliar, strange and lively. People had stopped in order to wake me up, shaking me by the shoulders and asking if I was alright, and where I was from. They called the place Stomend, and the technology here was primitive, but at the same time... Charming to me, in a way. I couldn't explain it, and I probably still can't. All of the people here, from what I could gather, were like me. From another world far, far away, stolen in order to inhabit this force by the name of Kindra.
[break][break]
Whatever the reason I was brought here, I.. I'm here. They have a library which I have been able to find employment at, and it allows me to draw an income to support myself with. In my chest, I still feel nothing, just as it always was, and I still don't know what it is I'm searching for, what a heart truly is or what it would feel like.
[break][break]
But I guess I'm still looking.
Ever since Zexion was brought into the world as a Nobody rather than a normal person, he has had the ability to call forth a book all-knowing of anything his mind has come across: The Lexicon. This is his weapon, but at the same time, a trove of all he's encountered and all he's learned. With this book he is able to cast spells and use powerful magic at a whim, though he doesn't necessarily like to do so unless forced. These spells can take up the majority of his energy, so he would much rather stick to his natural ability: illusion.
[break][break]
With his strong mind, Zexion has the ability to cast illusion to the eyes of another, making them see what he wants them to see. Again, he only uses this when necessary, and it will be discussed between players if he puts it into use as to avoid powerplaying. Along with affecting one's mind to the world around them, he can also affect someone to where they would perceive him as something, or someone different. This includes cloning himself, altering his appearance, and altering his voice.
[break][break]
Aside from these abilities, the young Nobody has a remarkable mind for science and things of the like. He enjoys reading more than anything due to the way it allows him to immerse himself within something. Reading about emotions, or reading about people with hearts give him a sense that he might better understand it himself when the time comes. In these books, whenever Zexion learns something new, it is added to his Lexicon; the book is otherworldly, having magic surrounding it allowing the pages to grow endlessly, brought forth when they are called upon.
[break][break]
Zexion enjoys learning, puzzles and things that give his mind a challenge. Apart from logical things, however, he is virtually primitive and doesn't understand even the basics. Being the kind of Nobody he is, though, he's willing to try.
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I have taken Zexion from AFTER KH RE:COM, after the point he was killed by Riku Replica/Axel
Barbie
She/Her
Twenty
couple days......
Central
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PLAYED BY BARBIE !
